Do I like him? Yes I like him. No I can't. Maybe I do.
My friends say me and him should be together. But I always said ew!
But have they swayed my mind?
Has what they said made me unsure and have second thoughts?
How can I know my true feelings?
Has what people told me affected my heart?
I have always said he's just my friend my non-related brother but now sometimes I question myself.
He was in my dream.
He asked me to kiss him.
I was nervous. I ran.
He caught me and asked why.
I told I was nervous, scared and let him kiss me.
I know he likes another girl. I can see why he likes her. I mean she's nice, smart, pretty, and many more things I am not.
Am I jealous?
But how can I be if he's just a friend to me?
When I hear Things I'll Never Say I think of him. Heck I hear any love song I think of him!
How I can ever tell him.
He knows I like someone though he is unaware it is him. He even bugged me to the point of promising I'd tell him in June.
Oh how it will make everything akward once he knows.
For him. For me. For my friends.
My friends who know already are teasing me constantly.
Especially one of my friends.
She'll say stuff like "oh what do you see in him" one moment. Then the next she's saying "Omg! Your kids would look so cute! There'll be little ___ & ___ running around!"
I always tease him about him being a girl or gay even if I know he's not. He teases me back of course.
He makes me smile and laugh when he says something perverted and doesn't know it.
When I hear Teardrops on My Guitar i think of how he likes another girl.
And how I'm just a friend.
How she's so much better than me. How I wish it was me.
How once when my friend told me he liked me.
I was smiling.
But then she said he said "wait no eww she's my sister. "
My heart got sad.
Yet still I laugh and smile with him.
So do I like him?
Do I like my best friend basically brother?
