Sometimes

Sometimes when all you want to do is cry, the only thing you can do is smile. Everyday I feel like I'm breaking more inside. Everyday I hold back and only tell a person part of my troubles. Even when its my bestest friends, I still stay quiet. In the morning when I'm walking down the halls, I'm thinking to myself and feel like I'm about to burst into tears. My heart can't help but seem heavy like a ton of bricks. When someone I know is walking by and says hi, all I do is put on a fake smile. Act like everything is fine when slowly I'm falling apart inside. It's not always like this but once I'm alone and I truly have time to think I just have the sudden need to cry. Finally at night, when I'm laying in my bed, cuddling with my huge tiger and dog, I let it out. I don't sob. I don't make a sound. I just let it out silently. Wishing that the next day, maybe something wonderfully wonderful would happen.