If They Could Only See

They came to tell your faults to me,
They named them over one by one;
I laughed aloud when they were done,
I knew them all so well before, --
Oh, they were blind, too blind to see
Your faults had made me love you more

That poem is Fault by Sara Teasdale. The message of it is pretty clear. When you like someone that your peers do not personally like, they will tend to ask why you like them. They will point out the person's flaws, trying to convince you that the person is not worth loving. I'm having that happen to me right now even though I'm not yet a grown-adult or had a relationship. Since I like my friend who honestly is really cute and he's really gullible and stuff, my friends(that know) are always like "What do you see in him?" I guess his faults like him being gullible or not being able to say no or his inability to sing actually made me just like him more.

Rude Much?

Ok so this weekend I went to CoffeBean and I did not have a good experience there. So my mother called me into the shop to help carry the drinks in. So I went in and you know how they have a counter where the sugar and etc are? Well my mom put the cups on the counter and was putting in syrup in one of the cups when this guy who worked there probabaly in his 20s or early 30s came to clean up. So he was cleaning the table with a towel and just PUSHED the cups on the floor! And of course I got soaked...well my shoes did and their jean shoes so its bad to get wet. But I'm not ranting about that. What I'm mad at and cried about was that the guy didn't even say sorry. Normally if someone spills something on accident they'd be saying" I'm so sorry! Are you ok?" Well this guy didn't he just left to get a mop and came back. We literally had to ask for an apology. Not to mention when my aunt who was also there asked to speak to the manager the guy just said quote in quote, "He's in the back." You'd think if someone asks that the person would get the manager. I'm definetely not going back to CoffeBean again cause of that guy.

Kiss Me Through a Veil

"A compliment is something like a kiss through a veil."-Victor Hugo

I believe that quote stands true in many relationships. Although I have never had a boyfriend or gone a date or been kissed. I can connect to what Mr.Hugo was talking about. Sometimes you are under circumstances where you cannot fully be with the person due to various things. If you take me for example, I truly can say I love a boy as a brother but like him in a romantic way. However since he is my best friend/non-related brother and I know he likes another girl, the only thing I can do to remotely express my feelings without him knowing is by complimenting him. I'm trapped by that veil and try as I have, it has not yet dispersed. But I will break that veil soon. I can feel it. And then. Then no longer will that compliment be a secret kiss through a veil.

Three Things I Regret

1. Not speaking up to a spoiled, uptight, obnoxious girl in PE
2. Not saying how grateful I was to people.
3. Keeping quiet and not telling my best friend I like him.

April Fools?

Can I say I'm such an idiot? I think so. If you've read my other blog then you know about my crush. For those who don't then let me get u caught up. So I have this enormous crush on my best friend but I'm sure he doesn't like me. Ok. So you see repetively I've had the perfect opportunity to confess to him. Once when he came over to work on a project and we were the only ones in my room cause everyone else left already. Then today I had like four chances too! Especialy since its April Fools. I could've been told him and if he didn't like me back be like "April Fools!" You should've seen me during lunch. My friends found out and tried to get me to do it cause I chickened out so I was like being dragged by them. Then suddenly he ran out of the cafeteria so my friends were gonna chase him. That's when I ran away. Then after school I had the chance cause his locker was near my friend's but I chickened out again! Not to mention my friends keep telling me he likes me and that its so obvious. >.< I'm such a coward arn't I!?